hey

She softly sighed breathing in the crisp winter air burning in her lungs. She faintly heard her friends voices dancing in the backround, her music was much more promininet the headphones buried deep within her ear canals. The pulse of the music was easily felt through her ears, for it was far to loud and of this she was aware. 'look at that sky' she told herself. The bluest parts stood out from the perrywinkle tainted by the transparent white of the clouds She squinted her already narrow eyes focusing so hard she saw the particles pulsating above her. Dancing around her making this reality that she herself held true. Breathing in again she felt the air traveling down her windpipes entering her lungs, a cold still lingering within.

Today was a day that was colder than all the rest. Her fingers were a numb chilled from the outside world, and her cheeks were a rosy pink from her body heat within rising up contrasting with the world around causing a clash of the two temperatures right at her cheeks.

"Bobbie" she thought she heard, glancing up she saw all their round faces looking down upon her. She snapped back into her reality tearing the comfort of the intrusive headphone from her ear.

"yeah" she sat up straight, noticing the euphoria wane. "yeah" she repeated quieter under her breath, taking one last savory breath, letting the beauty around her slip from her grasp. They all took one last glance at her and resumed their meaningless conversation. She leaned forward resting her forehead on her folded arms, the smell of the metal sweeping into her nostrils. It was nauseating and overbearing, but she let her head fall closer, the smell growing stronger and felt her mind slipping focusing on the dark of her close lids and the warmth on her back. In her dreams was where she was at home. In this reality that was of her own design he told her he loved her. Over and over and over

"BOBBIE" she felt a shake, a hand on her flesh pushing.

"Wake her up man"

"Is she ok?"

"stop pushing" she muttered, her words muffled by her arms. "Im fine, just didn't sleep last night" she grinned helplessly. Their eyes were prodding, searching for a flaw in her story eager to catch her in a lie. She knew them, she was used to them. "Really" she continued, "Im… fine" she spat out harsher than she intended. There was a silence around the table, everyone staring, trying to think of something to say. She could see it in their eyes. She could hear their little brains looking for a way to make her talk about her "feelings" but they silently knew they couldn't. "I have to go" she mumbled standing up not waiting for a response. Her eyes involuntarily moved towards his and for a moment they watched each other. Her skin began to crawl, her heart began to race and she felt her flesh heating up. She forced her eyes away turning her back to leave.

"Ill text!" someone shouted from behind, but she didn't bother to turn around to see who, her only reply was a less than enthusiastic wave of her hand and she was gone, alone.